A Decision That Changed My Life
I believe that most every human who has ever lived has at some point in their life looked back upon their life and said what if. What if I had taken that other job offer and not the one I did except? What if I hadn’t married the person I did but had married a different person? Or maybe what if I hadn’t decided to drive drunk that one night or maybe what if I hadn’t shot that burglar. I am an old man now and I have had many such conversions within my own self throughout the years. Personally I know that I have made many mistakes in my life that I wish dearly that I could go back and change yet even those things would have thrown the life I have lived right off the rails. Personally I believe that if there were an Angel up in Heaven with a little clicker like a home plate umpire uses in a baseball game and they clicked it every time I have screwed up, sinned, or made a wrong decision I think that clicker would have broken many years ago. Not something I am proud of, but the truth is still the truth.
Today in this letter to you I am going to pick out just one of those decisions to talk with you about, I hope you will think along with me as I talk to you about it. The year was 1983 and that summer I decided that I would enlist in the U.S Army. I lived in the Dallas Fort Worth area of north Texas and I went to the designated location to take a battery of tests to see what I was best qualified to do once in the Service. Turns out that I scored very high on them and then a Sergeant with the Texas National Guard came over and talked to me. The Guard was looking for someone who scored real high to accept a position of a Lieutenant with the Texas National Guard but I turned down the offer and went into the regular Army instead.
I entered the Army on July 18th of 1983. While in Boot Camp at Fort Dix New Jersey while on a training mission I was struck by a bolt of lightning. To say the least that messed me up inside a lot. The results of that event totally and completely changed the course of my life from physical stand points. This messed up my legs, spine and heart and disabled me from any form of a natural life. What if I had taken the job as a member of the Texas National Guard? The Guard Boot Camp would have been in Texas at one of their Army Forts, not New Jersey. I would not have been hit with that bolt of lightning. Maybe I would have been able to have lived a normal life style and never been injured at all. But, isn’t that really just a guess? Just because I wouldn’t have been at Fort Dix at that particular time, what if that decision of going into the Guard would have put me into a place and time where I would have gotten killed or mangled in some other event? Only the Lord knows all of the couda, wooda, shouldas, I know that as a human the best I can do is to just wonder, what if.