(History Poem) 112 Years Ago

112 YEARS AGO

 

December 5th, 1905, the Lord put an Angel in our life

Family history, a Beautiful pink Rose opened her eyes

Sophie Amanda Hanson, such a beautiful little girl child

Eyes filled with light, love, and little girl wonders, and fears

Always slight in personal possessions, yet full of hugs and love

Loving and caring, always centered on others, a gracious Soul

 

 

After 90 of our years the Lord seen fit to bring Her back home

As long as a person is remembered, they are never really gone

Blessed to have her daughter for my wonderful loving Mom

Your loving Soul now playing Rook with the Lord’s Angels above

The date of your birth, our family still honors your memory of

112 years soon you will be, this 5th of December, 1905 to 2017

 

Within My Gaze

 

I see my picture

Upon your T-Shirts, paintings and plates

Displayed proudly upon your walls

You think me to be cuddly

Domesticated easily like your lap dog hounds

Only to the giant bear have I ever backed down

You dare come into my home

To jog, camp, sleep, and play

When was the last time

You ever saw me walking down your streets

More ignorant than the lamb I had this morning

My belly is grumbling as the dark sets in

Do you now think I am so cute and cuddly

As I back you down to the edge of the cliff

Your eyes glued, within my gaze

Yours truly, the Alpha WOLF!

The Son He Doesn’t Have To Be

 

Have you ever been a step-parent? Have you ever been a stepchild? I grew up in a house where I had both of my biological parents there. Did you notice that I did not use the word ‘home’, that I simply said house? Just because I had both of my biological parents living within the same four walls as I did, this did not mean that it was automatically a ‘home’. I had a great Mom but my Dad was severely lacking in his human skills. I left home at 17 because of how much of a hell-hole he made of our family life. He died when I was 37 and it took me till I was about 40 before I could forgive him of his ways toward me. Only when I was able to say to myself that he really was an ‘a–hole’ and that he also was mentally ill before I was able to forgive him. I know that I asked my Mom a couple of times before she died if Dad really was my Dad, asking her if maybe Dad thought that I really wasn’t his as I was trying to find a way to come to grips with how horribly he treated me and if there really was a ‘why’ that made any sense. I thought that if maybe he thought that I really wasn’t his, that if he thought Mom had cheated on him that this might be the reason he was such an a– toward me but she told me no both times about the issue. There is an old term about ‘beating you like you’re a redheaded step child’ that might come into play with me but that wasn’t it, I am of his own blood. I brought this up because I was the only blonde child and the only left-handed child, so I thought, well maybe. I did not ever experience a step-parent situation even though I honestly felt having no Dad in our house would have been much better than having a hate filled drunken maniac dominating our household.

I grew up determined not to be anything like my Dad’s example of a human being though I did make many parenting mistakes of my own. I married a lady in Texas who had a son who was 11 at the time we met and married, he is now 46 and married with a child/son of his own and as far as I know he is a great Dad who loves his son very much. 17 years ago I remarried to a lady in Florida who had a son who was 6 at the time, his biological Dad had committed suicide when he was 4. This son was a bit difficult because he didn’t believe or understand that both of us really did love him. He was about 16 before he actually ‘got it’, once he did see that light he now for the past 7 years has become a great child to both of us, especially to me. He is now 23 and a year ago his Mom and I bought a house that has a full 3 bedroom 1 bath apartment with a ‘walkout’ basement. One of the big factors in buying this house was so that he could live there if he wanted to, and he did.

Ten years ago his Mom and I would never have thought he could come so far in his development as a person, as an adult.  I am sure that none of the three of us would have thought that after he turned 18 that he would want anything to do with us or quite frankly us to do with him. What changed him? I believe it was him coming to the understanding of the fact that he really was loved, by both of us. He is a grown man now, there is nothing that says he has to live in this basement apartment, he chooses to. A couple of years ago he told me something that really stuck in my heart, that meant a whole lot to me. He told me, “Dad, all the good that is in me is because of you”. When a child you have raised loves you even when they are adults and there is nothing that says they have to do so or to even pretend that they do, that is very gratifying to one’s Soul. About 20 or so odd years ago there was a Country Music song that came out called “the Dad he doesn’t have to be” about a man stepping into a marriage with a woman who had a son already and how this man performed his role as a Dad. I am blessed to have two sons who were not biological to me that still love me, even though they do not have any obligation to have to do so. This is why the title of this note to you “the son he doesn’t have to be.” I am a strong believer in blood family yet I have learned that blood alone does not guarantee they will love you. I have also learned that someone who is not blood to you can still absolutely be “family” and love you even more that those who are blood to you do.

With In My Gaze (The Alpha Wolf)

I see my picture

Upon T-Shirts, paintings and plates

Displayed proudly upon your walls

You think me to be warm and cuddly

Domesticated easily like your lap dog hounds

Only to the giant bear

Have I ever backed down

You come to my home

To sleep, laugh, and play

When was the last time

You ever seen me walking down your streets

More ignorant than the lamb I had this morning

My belly is grumbling as the dark sets in

Do you now think I am so cute and cuddly

As I back you down,

Your eyes glued, within my gaze

Yours truly, the alpha WOLF!

WithIn My Gaze

Within My Gaze

 

I see my picture

Upon T-Shirts, paintings and plates

Displayed proudly upon your walls

You think me to be cuddly

Domesticated easily like your lap dog hounds

Only to the giant bear

Have I ever backed down

You come to my home

To sleep, laugh, and play

When was the last time

You ever see me walking down your streets

More ignorant than the lamb I had this morning

My belly is grumbling as the dark sets in

Do you now think I am so cute and cuddly

As I back you down,

Your eyes glued, within my gaze

Yours truly, the alpha WOLF!

Who Is At Home “Within Us”

 

 

 

While I was attending classes at Walters State in Morristown Tennessee, I was graced to have a Professor whom I believe is a convert to Buddhism. The class I had with him had a large amount to do with world cultures so obviously interfacing  at times with Religion issues. He did a very good job of keeping his personal convictions to himself. His knowledge of the issues being taught I felt were very good. One day in his office the issue of one’s soul came to the forefront and my beliefs really stunned my Professor. When he got over his shock he looked at me all stunned faced and said “do you really believe that ?”.

 

 

My belief is quite simple, I believe that all humans have souls. Everyone’s body is the Temple of the Holy Spirit whom have excepted Jesus as the Christ and have been buried in baptism and raised a new person, but only if you, your Soul, invite Him in. You (your Temple), and everyone’s Temple only have one of three positions that we can be in. There is the first fact that everyone must first overcome and that is whether they really do or do not believe that God is real.  Then a person must believe that there is such a thing as Souls. We (our Souls) are always in our bodies (except for a few short oddities here and there). We can live in our House (body) alone or one of two other things can happen. Either our body is possessed by our souls only, or with a Spirit from either the Light of the Dark, but never at the same time.  Dark can not be where the Light is. Light will throw out the Dark, for where the Light is the Dark cannot enter. The third option is one that is taken but usually not by the persons own choice. This “situation” is when a Spirit of Darkness “a Demon” decides to step into your body, when this happens the only thing that can force them to leave their host is through the power of God’s Spirit. So, we are all in one of these three positions according to the best of all the material I have been able to study on this matter indicates.

 

So when death comes calling on us, and on us it all will, who is at home with us? The answer is the same for every one of us when it comes time for each of us to die, we will be found in one of these three conditions when we die, or when the Lords trumpet sounds. 1.) We are found, home alone, no company, self served to Hell’s Gate. 2.) We are so unfortunate as to have had a Demon residing within us, whether a person knew it was there or not, they will still be condemned to Hell’s Gate. 3.) You/we/I may think this is a bit unfair but what you and I think really doesn’t matter any at all. I know it is a shock to many but we ourselves are not the decider of all things, we are not the rulers of the universe. Unless a person when they die find themselves in the third condition (having the Spirit of God, Holy Spirit) residing within them then you/we/I have no hope but to end up at number one and two’s destination. It is the New Testament that you will read this understanding in as it was not an Old Testament (The Law to the Hebrew people) situation but for all of us since the time of Christ it is now the only way to God’s salvation.

 

 

 

Who Is At Home

 

 

 

While I was attending classes at Walters State in Morristown Tennessee, I was graced to have a Professor whom I believe is a convert to Buddhism. The class I had with him had a large amount to do with world cultures so obviously interfacing  at times with Religion issues. He did a very good job of keeping his personal convictions to himself. His knowledge of the issues being taught I felt were very good. One day in his office the issue of one’s soul came to the forefront and my beliefs really stunned my Professor. When he got over his shock he looked at me all stunned faced and said “do you really believe that ?”.

 

 

My belief is quite simple, I believe that all humans have souls. Everyone’s body is the Temple of the Holy Spirit whom have excepted Jesus as the Christ and have been buried in baptism and raised a new person, but only if you, your Soul, invite Him in. You (your Temple), and everyone’s Temple only have one of three positions that we can be in. There is the first fact that everyone must first overcome and that is whether they really do or do not believe that God is real.  Then a person must believe that there is such a thing as Souls. We (our Souls) are always in our bodies (except for a few short oddities here and there). We can live in our House (body) alone or one of two other things can happen. Either our body is possessed by our souls only, or with a Spirit from either the Light of the Dark, but never at the same time.  Dark can not be where the Light is. Light will throw out the Dark, for where the Light is the Dark cannot enter. The third option is one that is taken but usually not by the persons own choice. This “situation” is when a Spirit of Darkness “a Demon” decides to step into your body, when this happens the only thing that can force them to leave their host is through the power of God’s Spirit. So, we are all in one of these three positions according to the best of all the material I have been able to study on this matter indicates.

 

So when death comes calling on us, and on us it all will, who is at home with us? The answer is the same for every one of us when it comes time for each of us to die, we will be found in one of these three conditions when we die, or when the Lords trumpet sounds. 1.) We are found, home alone, no company, self served to Hell’s Gate. 2.) We are so unfortunate as to have had a Demon residing within us, whether a person knew it was there or not, they will still be condemned to Hell’s Gate. 3.) You/we/I may think this is a bit unfair but what you and I think really doesn’t matter any at all. I know it is a shock to many but we ourselves are not the decider of all things, we are not the rulers of the universe. Unless a person when they die find themselves in the third condition (having the Spirit of God, Holy Spirit) residing within them then you/we/I have no hope but to end up at number one and two’s destination. It is the New Testament that you will read this understanding in as it was not an Old Testament (The Law to the Hebrew people) situation but for all of us since the time of Christ it is now the only way to God’s salvation.

 

 

 

Within My Gaze

 

I see my picture

Upon your T-Shirts, paintings and plates

Displayed proudly upon your walls

You think me to be cuddly

Domesticated easily like your lap dog hounds

Only to the giant bear have I ever backed down

You dare come into my home

To jog, camp, sleep, and play

When was the last time

You ever saw me walking down your streets

More ignorant than the lamb I had this morning

My belly is grumbling as the dark sets in

Do you now think I am so cute and cuddly

As I back you down to the edge of the cliff

Your eyes glued, within my gaze

Yours truly, the Alpha WOLF!