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Woman who was blinded for life after she gouged out her own EYES explains why she did it
Kaylee Muthart pulled her both eyes from their sockets while hallucinating outside the church in South Carolina, US
A woman blinded herself for life when she gouged out her eyes outside a church.
Kaylee Muthart said she was a straight-A student before she started drinking and smoking weed in her late teens.
But after dropping out of school, the 20-year-old was given a joint laced with methamphetamine and it made her feel ‘closer to God’.
After being diagnosed with bipolar disorder and having a mental breakdown, Kaylee said she sought out the high she first experienced last summer again and again.
The consequences of her drug addiction were reported around the world in February when she pulled her eyes from their sockets while hallucinating outside a church in South Carolina, US.
“I was hallucinating, so my memories are fuzzy,” Kaylee told Cosmopolitan .
“I remember thinking that someone had to sacrifice something important to right the world, and that person was me. I thought everything would end abruptly and everyone would die if I didn’t tear out my eyes immediately.”
She added: “I pushed my thumb, pointer, and middle finger into each eye. I gripped each eyeball, twisted, and pulled until each eye popped out of the socket — it felt like a massive struggle, the hardest thing I ever had to do.
“Because I could no longer see, I don’t know if there was blood. But I know the drugs numbed the pain.”
Terrified worshippers rushed out of the church in Anderson after hearing Kaylee screams, but she fought them off. A pastor said he saw her squeezing her own eyeballs in her hands while they were still attached to her head.
“I’m pretty sure I would have tried to claw right into my brain if a pastor hadn’t heard me screaming, “I want to see the light!” — which I don’t recall saying — and restrained me,” Kaylee said .
“He later said, when he found me, that I was holding my eyeballs in my hands. I had squished them, although they were somehow still attached to my head.”
By the time medics were able to calm her enough to help, it was too late to save her sight.
Kaylee spent a week in hospital before being transferred to a psychiatric in-patient treatment facility.
She says she suffered from bad headaches behind her eye sockets for about a month after being admitted, but refused to take strong painkillers because she was determined to stay of drugs.
Now Kaylee and her mum, Katy Tompkins, want to warn others about the dangers of methamphetamine, and are appealing for help to fund a service dog.
Writing on a GoFundMe appeal page , Katy said: “Like so many, she fell victim to the dangerous reality of methamphetamine.
“As we prepare for the long road to getting her situated in her new life we are asking for your help.”
Updating supporters about her daughter’s progress she wrote: “She is trying so hard to get her thoughts back together but unfortunately when she was under the influence of methamphetamine, pure evil, she saw things she cannot unsee.
https://get.convrse.media/?url=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.mirror.co.uk%2Fnews%2Fus-news%2Fwoman-who-blinded-life-after-12163539&cre=bottom&cip=29&tags=%5B%22Hospitals%22%2C%22Mental%20health%22%2C%22Drugs%22%5D§ion=news“They are still in her memories. She doesn’t want them to be but she is trying her best to work through it.
“Thankfully, as time progresses, with much support and her therapy, we can help her to understand that things that she was seeing and thinking at that time, were not true or real.”