Yes this is a personal question to you, me, and everyone else. This is not a question where I am looking for you to say your own personal answer to me or to anyone else. It is a personal question for each of us to really do some soul searching with but one that we can keep secret to just ourselves and God. Um, God, I did have to include Him didn’t I. When we hear that little quiet voice that is deep inside each of us, that voice that tells us right from wrong, the voice that tells us as we approach the traffic light whether we can run it without getting caught or not, do we listen and obey, or do we start an argument with ourselves? That voice that tells us it’s okay for us to lie, cheat, or steal, or not, that inner person that is each of us is what I am trying to address today in this post.
Scripture tells us that what we humans consider to be righteousness is but filthy rags to God. So if I want to get on my high horse and stick my smug little nose up in the air and go about my daily life telling others how good I am then I in fact would be nothing but a reckless idiot, a liar, and a fool. Fool? Yes a fool! Most all of my life I have tried to be a good person and there are a lot of people who know me who would say in private to you that I do try to be a very good Christian person. But the truth is, by Biblical standards, Old and New Testament, I personally feel like a pathetic failure. Truth is even though by our cultures standards I may live a more pure life style than what is excepted in our culture to be except-able, in my own soul I know I am really pathetic and my own failures sicken me to the core of my being.
My list of sins and personal failures if numbered would have many zeros in it. I know that the blood of Christ that He spilled when He sacrificed Himself to help save all of us washes away our sins as we commit them, as long as we are really trying to be pure in our daily walk with Him. I just wish that I would stop screwing up so much and that isn’t even counting the times I messed up and didn’t even realize it. It is a sin when we know something is a sin but we go ahead and do it anyway, those are the worse mess ups because when we are preforming our lives in this manner we are courting the favors of the Devil and purposely turning our face away from God. We have all been told plainly that “the prayers of the wicked are an abomination to me and I turn my face from them”. Friends, egos are a very dangerous thing to possess. Especially when we can’t even be honest with ourselves about ourselves.
I know that in my life that I have not committed every “sin in the book” but when I start thinking about all of the sins (the ones I know of) that I have committed in my life, all the times I have done other people wrong, it does kick my ego right in the family jewels. In other words my flaws make me rather sick at my stomach. None of us are ever going to be perfect in this life, but if we walk our lives after the example Christ gave us which is what all people who confess to be followers of Christ are suppose to be doing everyday, then the Blood of Christ will save us. But when we do not then it is that same Blood that will condemn us.
I just don’t want any of the people who read this blog to ever think that I am talking down to them as though I am better than other folks, I’m not. If there is a adding machine in Heaven with my name on it that has dinged every time I have sinned in my life they have probably had to replace that poor bell a few times by now. In my days I have stolen, lied, had sex outside of marriage, physically beaten men into unconsciousness, and there are probably a hundred other things that would total a million sins on that adding machine tape. For me to say I am more Holy than another person I think it best that I shut my mouth and not add that lie to my list. Integrity, I’m trying to possess it in my daily life, I just thank the Lord that He is as merciful and love filled as He is because He is my only hope of cleaning my daily slate. I hope and I pray that trying to walk a Christ filled life is my first daily agenda, I do very much hope and pray that it is for you also. We can’t be perfect, but that doesn’t mean that we are not suppose to try our very best each and everyday to walk our lives with integrity. Good day friend, I hope you all have a good one, God bless.